1.02.2012

Back to School

I feel like I am in college again.  I had a full two weeks to grade this tiny stack of papers, plan in detail my week, and wash my clothes, and when have I chosen to do all three things???

Today.  I have got to stop procratinating so much... Maybe tomorrow!  ;)

My healthy eating plan began today [after the pancakes I ate for breakfast], and I did alright!  I have a bad habit of waiting until I am super-duper hungry and then eating way too much to compensate for my rumbling tummy.  So today, I ate all three meals at meal time(s), which is a pretty big deal for me!  I tend to rush in the mornings and fix my hair instead of pack a lunch or eat a good breakfast, thus leaving me one hungry hungry hippo upon my arrival at home.  Already tonight I have packed a lunch for tomorrow in my Vera Bradley lunchbox [courtesy of best friend Allison, thanks!!!] and distrubuted crackers and such into baggies for the rest of the week!  I also divided my Chipotle burrito bowl in half when I got it, and put it into a dish to take to school tomorrow!  Go me!!  ;)

I really should have worked out today, but I just couldn't make myself on my last day of break!  We were so stinkin busy the last few weeks moving and traveling and puppy-training that the last couple of days I have done nothing but hangout and enjoy life!  :)

I am optimistic, positive, and ready for a better semester than the last.  I will improve my teaching, be more organized, and most importantly be more patient with my kids and show them not only in my actions but especially my reactions that they are special, important, valuable, and loved, worth all the time and energy I give them.  I am excited to go back!  

PS. I know like, 96% of the people who read this are also my friend on Facebook and in real life, so you could have already looked at these, but here are a couple pictures from my break!!  :)









PPS.  We really love our dogs.  We know we are obsessed with our dogs.  We are "those people" and are totally ok with it!  :)

1.01.2012

#hello2012

What a HUGE year we just said farewell to last night.  We had so many awesome mountain-top experiences in 2011, but also spent a lot of time in the valley, not sure which way we were supposed to go next.  I have had my eyes widely opened to just how great my God is to love me in spite of who I am, and been abundantly blessed and astonished at how Nick continues to pour out patience, grace, and unconditional love on this crazy, selfish, hard-headed girl.  I am constantly blown away at the life God has blessed us with, the family we are so lucky to have, the best friends on the planet, and continual evidance that HE is in control and will direct us down this path He has called us to walk. 

Because I love to jump on bandwagon trends and do what everyone else does [see:: wearing skinny jeans, coffee-drinking, and my attempts to enjoy hummus as proof], and because it will be fun to look back and read about my year and goals and so on, below you will find a list of experiences and so on from the year 2011 as well as goals and challenges for the year 2012!

In January I [im]patiently waited for my teaching license to arrive and spent the majority of my time questioning my career choice and wondering what my next steps should be.  I was sure I was no longer cut out to be a teacher. I did a lot of complaining about my joblessness, but throughly enjoyed being a stay-at-home-wife for the month.  I also had my very first sinus infection, and went on a ski-trip as the only female youth sponsor.  In an effort to finish yet a third bachelor's degree, I took a class at MCC, putting my two classes and an internship away from that BS in Family.  Nick and I also watched the TV series LOST in its entirety.  #bestshowever

In February I continued to question my status, a newly graduated adult without a job and already suffiiciently bored to tears being a stay-at-home wife.  With my teaching license in hand, willing to give the education world one last shot before calling it quits and becoming a professional muffin-maker, I embarked on a challenging, hillarious, rewarding semester as a substitute teacher [dun dun dunnnn]. 

In March I continued to seek purpose, significance, and fulfillment, and was met with discontent, unsatisfaction, and discomfort with who I was and where I found myself to be in life.  I was applying for teaching jobs and was met with constant rejection, a response with which I was very unfamiliar.  I did, however, begin to train for a half-marathon to be completed in May. 

In April I was given an opportunity to be a long-term substitute in Manhattan as the In-School-Suspension facilitator at the high school.  Let's just say I am not cut out for that position in any sort of long-term sense.  I literally sat in silence and played on the computer all day.  I was essentially back to my boredom, only now I received a paycheck to do nothing all day!  It was, however, great to have a routine for a couple months before school ended.  I continued to search and apply for job after job, but still heard nothing...until the very end of the month, when I received a call one evening asking if I would like to interview for a position... 

In May, so many wonderful things happened.  I completed my very first half-marathon.  I was so proud and thoroughly enjoyed (almost) the entire experience!  The pain was totally worth it.  I also found out that I had a teaching job for the fall!!!  Not only did God bless me with a job, but a job at the school in the district I wanted to be most!  Praise the Lord for his provision and timing.  Also in May Nick and I celebrated one whole year of marriage!  Nick turned 25, and we went on a super fun cross-country road/air-trip with friends to Phoenix, LA, and Vegas!  Also in May, my parents celebrated their 26th(?) wedding anniversary and my sweet and best most favorite sister got married to her love!  This wonderful marriage did, however, take my baby sister and bestest friend all the way to Memphis, TN, home of FedEx, lots of Chik-Fil-A's, and a Vera Bradley store!

In June I experienced the best week of camp EVER, at which I was challenged beyond belief and blessed so deeply by God's church and ultimate frisbee.  I also read the Redemption Series in its entirety.  Karen Kingsbury, you have a gift.  I love to read.

In July I did so many things too!  Sheesh, what a busy year.  I had one of my very favorite couples get married and become the MacGill's!  What a beautiful wedding to attend and be a part of.  I love watching so many friends of ours get married!!  Ben and Allison are such a great picture of committment and friendship, and I love having them in our life and especially still here in Manhattan!  I also was blessed to attend a conference in Dallas with a group of teachers from my school.  I was so lucky to learn and get to know those awesome teachers before starting in the fall!  I was also beyong blessed to attend CIY in Michigan with THE best youth group ever to sponsor!  We were deeply moved and challenged to stand bold in our faith and love for Christ as well as to be in real, constant prayer for our brothers and sisters under persecution.  I finished the busy month with a road trip with one of my dearest and best friends [Alli!] to Memphis to visit Sarah and Mark!  In July Nick and I also welcomed Nathan, Nick's brother, into our home to live!

In August, I married off another best friend and one half of the best camp team known to man [Team P!] as Amanda and Kenny became the Park's!  Amanda was one of the most beautiful brides I have ever seen.  She shines such a bright light of character and beauty.  She is so kind and intentional with her relationships.  And of course Kenn is the best as well!  In August I also began my very first year of teaching!  I met some of the greatest and most encouraging teachers there are, and some of the craziest and best students ever! 

In September I accidentally cut my hair all off.  Oook, it wasn't actually an accident, but I did regret it almost immediately after leaving the salon.  I am looking forward to having it long again soon.  We attended a Huskers game and Nick did lots of traveling recruting for MCC.  I continued to get to know my students and the other teachers on the team, as well as slowly began to figure out how to teach seventh graders and Language Arts.  I experienced lots of frustrations as I had lots of failures and struggles as a new teacher, but was so blessed to be encouraged by teachers at school. 

In October we celebrated a year of having Petee and my 25th birthday!  [Can you say old?!  I am sure I was just turning 17 last week!]  I also discovered the best movie known to man, Tangled, and watched it over and over and over!!!  Nick and Nathan enjoyed it at first, but cringe at the mention of the movie now!  :) 

In November I was so lucky to travel with a group of teachers from my district to Kentucky for the National Middle School Association/Association for Middle Level Educators conference.  Such a great learning opportunity and another awesome chance to get to know teachers/prinicpals!  Also with November came Thanksgiving(s)!  Mucho turkey and mucho gravy but a great time with family and friends.  My favorite momma also had a birthday!! 

In December we took a huge leap into adulthood as we purchased our first home!  It is a beautiful, perfect, and by definition my dream house!  We are thrilled to have moved in and are almost unpacked...all we have left is some of the clothes and laundry!  [nothing new there]  :)  I also completed my first full semester of teaching!!  Wahoooo!!!  We also added a sweet new puppy to our little family, Zooey!  Also in December we received tons of gifts from family and friends; we are so blessed, thank you!!

Which brings me to now, January 1, 2012.  2012??!  Holy cow!  I have a few major goals, which should lead to a better and more organized and healthy life both physically and spiritually. 

1. Deepen and grow my spiritual life.  I want to yearn for God.  I want to need Him and I want my whole self and life to radiate His presence within me.  I want to grow with my husband. 
2. Like every other woman in America, I have some health and weight loss goals.  I definitely took the summer and fall off or healthy living and will be making some changes to my eating and activity which will become habits and not short-lived failures. 

3.  I will get more organized this year and STAY organized.

I once again commit to make this year, 2012, the best year of my life, as I try to each year.  Praying God will challenge me and grow me, and open my eyes to where I can best be used to bring praise to His Glory. 

11.15.2011

I am so blessed. 

Thanks, God. 




[This song is so good.]

10.03.2011

Best Month EVERRRR

Oh October, how I love you!  Seriously this is my very most favorite wonderful perfect great and awesome time of year.  The leaves are changing and the air is cooler and my nose is runny (oh wait, that isn't so awesome).  My birthday is in 15 days (and counting), and we finally ate chili this weekend!  I've obviously had mt fair share of candy corn and worn boots a couple times.  Ohhhh I love October and I love fall!  In case you are in the market to buy me a birthday gift, or Christmas present, or a thinking-of-you-so-I-bought-you-this-Vera-bag..... I figure a list of things I want is in order.  [Notice, I said things I want, not things I need, so its ok...]  PS. This list is really just for me ;)

1. Free trip to the salon to get my nails painted.  I can't seem to paint my own nails without dousing my entire hand in colored polish...
2. A new headband.
3. Gap giftcard so I can buy more clothes since I don't have very many... oh wait.
4. Target giftcard for similar purposes...but to also buy Raisinettes.  ["1-2"]
5. Tangled on DVD so I can watch it in my room and delete it off the DVR.
6. Tangled soundtrack, so Holly and I can learn all the songs driving to and from school everyday.
7. Someone to drive us to school and back everyday.
8. Personal aid to grade papers and make copies for me. 
9. Personal aid to clean my home and wash my clothes.
10. More hours in the day.
11. Wal-Mart to bring back my favorite creamer in the fat-free version...
12. Magic travel coffee mug that actually keeps my coffee hot for longer than an hour...
13. Did I say Tangled on DVD?
14. No papers to grade on my birthday. 
15. All my friends to move to Manhattan and live next door to me.
16. My students to be really good...4L.
17. To lose 10lbs, duh.
18. World peace and no more poverty.

-Mrs.B.

9.26.2011

I need an outlet......

...because poor, poor Holly has definitely heard enough of my whining, and I feel like right now it is just about all I do.  The 


I went to MCC tonight for the first time since school has started.  I haven't been away for that long since.... well since pre-August 2005 when I came to college.  While I do love my job and all the wonderful perks (salary, new pals, fulfilling days, etc.) it brings with it, I already miss the simplicity and ease of college living.  One semester I literally worked FIVE JOBS and took a full load of classes while being an RA and a youth sponsor and maintaining a plethora of relationships, and still maintained complete sanity.  Thus far this semester, I am doing like, one and a half things and feel like I can't even get those done well and/or on time!  Sheeeessshhhh. 

Good thing the little monsters, I mean, middle schoolers were mucccchhh better today than they have been yet!  Maybe I should cut my hair every weekend??  (I think yes!) 

Actual conversations---

Student: "Mrs. Brown, did you cut your hair?" Me: "No...the craziest thing, I just woke up and it was like this!"  Student: "Wait, really??"  Me: "Yahhh, no."  [I really do love them!!!]  

Another Student: "Mrs. Brown, why did you cut your hair?"  Me: "Ehh, I felt like it."  Another Student: "Yahh, but I liked it better before."  [Dangit.]

Yet Another Student: "Mrs. Brown, you are the best teacher in the whole world and for your birthday in 22 days I am bringing you chocolate and diet vanilla coke and flowers!"  [Hahaha that didn't really happen!  I wish ;)]

Anyway, basically the majority decided while they did like my hair better before, it looks pretty this way too.  Such nice little angels.  ;)



My kids did also try to tell me I enjoy being mean and giving Time-Outs today.  It's like they just don't know me at all.....those are the parts I enjoy the very least :/

For three out of the four classes I teach, today was the best day, behavior and productivity-wise, that we have had yet.  I felt like I could actually be mobile in the room and not just babysit one particular area, and there was a lot accomplished!  Hopefully tomorrow will continue to be good!  [Fingers crossed, knock-on-wood...]  I did, however, just realize I have to grade 100+ essays per the six-trait rubric this weekend, which is just lovely... bye-bye weekend...and it is only Monday!  Oh well!  


Have I mentioned just how much I love my dog lately?  He is the bomb.com for reals.  I never understood the whole "man's best friend" thing until now, but seriously he is just so dang loyal and always so excited to see me when I get home!  And he has finally figured out that if he wants to sleep on the bed, it has to be by our feet (err, my feet) because someone, ahem, cough cough, doesn't like to wake up snuggled next to our little fluff-puff of a pooch... whatever ;)  I am just so lucky and blessed to have two loves at home to escape to and relax with.  We will have had Petee a whole year in just a couple weeks (crraaazzzyyyy)!!!  It seriously feels like we have had him forever.  Life without that little pup would be so sad.  Kids?  No thanks.  We love our dog too much!  [But seriously]. 

Best life...no matter the stress of seventh grade. 

9.25.2011

sometimes ya just give in to your emotions

I am about as typical girl as they come.  I eat junky food when I am sad, I do and say things to please and impress other people, and I start a new diet and workout plan at leas twice a week.  I listen to the same depressing songs on repeat over and over and over, and I watch movies and shows that I know will make me cry.  I still love my daddy and my momma is one of my best friends.  I have a serious addiction to wearing cardigans and have more bags than I would like to admit.  I believe in retail therapy and love to get a pedicure and drink skinny lattes.  But very much most of all, when I get irrational, emotional, and stressed, I love to cut my hair. 

Today, spur of the moment, because I wanted to, I cut my hair.  Choppy chop chop chop!  Bye-bye hair!  (Well not alllll of it!)  I cut it because I am stressed and emotional and crazy and needed to do something irrational. [Thanks to Nate-dog the bro-in-law and our bestest pal, Jordan for going with me to Great Clips!  Oops...only spent 12 bucks...cheapest haircut ever.]


Tomorrow begins a new six weeks with my precious seventh grade babies and tomorrow I am going to do better, teach better, be better, and love better.  Tomorrow.

9.23.2011

What if your blessings come through raindrops...

Things that are good:
1.  All my shows are back.  Very lame, but very much happy.
2.  DVR.  Thank you, whoever took the VCR and transformed it into DVR.  Thank youuuu. 
3.  There are sooo many teachers constantly telling me how great I am.  (They must not have seen me attempting to teach...) But still, it is such a gift and a blessing to have so many people to believe in me. 
4.  Three words: Craft. Fair. Tomorrow. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5. Nick said I can buy something at said craft fair, yay!  Best husband.
6.  Family who lives so close.  Sister being home. Momma teaching in my district. Daddy golfing with my man. 
7.  Quakes.  PtL for caramel quakes.  Amen.
8.  COFFEE, Coke Zero with Vanilla, chocolate, really all things caffeinated.  I am not sure I'd make it through most days without the caffeine. 
9.  Friends. 
10.  Students who show teeny glimpses of their heart each day.  They act all tough and like they don't care but there are tiny little slivers of real people inside of them that actually care...but just a tad bit. 
11.  Funny movies (Bridesmaids).  Definitely a laugh (a lot of laughs) much needed..

Thankful for blessings, thankful for Jesus, thankful for opportunity to learn and grow and struggle.  I know that though this is terribly challenging and difficult and I feel like a failure 93% of the time, I truly still believe I am in the place I am supposed to be.  As hard as it is to feel like I stink at my job almost all day and everyday, I have to continue to believe others when they say it gets better. 

                 




"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds,  because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.  Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.  If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.  But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind......Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him."  James 1