listening to sad songs when you're sad is just plain dumb.

It's that time of year again.  Spring is bursting with promise of a beautiful tomorrow, babies are coming, brides are planning, and soon-to-be graduates are eagerly anticipating tomorrow.

I should be thrilled, filled with joy, exuberant, but instead I am just so sad.  I don't think I have ever been so sad for the end of the year to come.  I mean don't get me wrong, I am so excited for all my friends to be finishing and moving and growing up and so on, but I am honestly heartbroken that so many friends are leaving.  This has never been so hard for me but this year I am just so sad.  One of the hard parts of living in a college town, working at a college, being super involved with college students, is this inevitable end that must come. It is weird, because I have had friends leave before, and I left so many of my friends at home to come here, but this year I just can't seem to shake this sadness that so many will be moving on from here. So many friends so dear to my heart, leaving.  My sweet, baby sister, leaving.

And like I said, don't get me wrong, I am thrilled for the exciting times to come for them, for the new, for the potential, for the opportunity to be used by God is a new place, to start new chapters, to invest in new people, but so much of me is just so so sad.

I am sitting here, crying my sad little eyes out, listening to my go-to sad song, wishing time would just stop so I could take in this last month and a half with full embrace, re-live all the memories, and just go back and do it all again.

Here's a photo reel of some of the people I'm going to miss...